As you may or may not know, Shy has colic. When it wasn’t so bad but at the time I thought it was the worst, I switched her onto milk for colic and constipation. I tried Infacol and Dentinox. I used gripe water. I don’t remember how much difference it made. The milk made her drink more which was good. The gripe water is like miracle water.
But the last 5 days have been the worst. Doing everything you can, being told by doctors and health visitors and family there is nothing more you can do, trying so hard your body gives up trying to keep up and you in turn become extremely ill… To still have to listen to your nearly 6 week old baby howl with pain various times a day because it’s still not working enough, is soul destroying. I’m far from angry. I’m upset.
I feel like a failure even though I’m doing my utmost best to help her and make it better. No one is judging me. Everyone understands. But no one can feel how I feel when she cries. If I could take her pain I would. I want to cry most days through frustration. Why can’t I make it go away?
No one know why babies get colic. And there’s lots of different reasons as to what may or may not cause it. But I’m still blaming myself thinking it must be something I done or am doing wrong.
I just want her to be happy.