Now I’ve had time to think about everything, I’m worried about my mental health following this. I’m hoping it’s just the shock of everything and will pass.
I’ve never felt this scared. A part of me is scared Shy will seem to be gettin better and then something will change – this terrifies me. My own life long fear of death is seeping in, causing panic attacks but in regards to Shy now.
I now feel I can never let this happen again. I have to eat properly, lots of fruit and veg, vitamins, lots of antibacterial stuff. I’m worried of who this fear could lead me to become. Maybe, if this carries on I will have to ask for therapy again. I don’t want Shy to live in my fear.
Let me sleep on it
Personally, it’s normal to have those fears. As long as it doesn’t take control over your life. For right joe ow though you are being a normal mother with real fears. The first time zi ever fell off the bed with me she was 9months I was on the phone and had just got get out the tub and laid her on the bed. I forgot her diaper turned around for one minute i saw get about to flip I through the phone down and tried so desperately to stop her fall. All I could think about was how close she came to hitting the dresser and what if she falls asleep and dnt wake back up because she fell! All those thoughts ran across my mind and scared me to death! She is a happy healthy 3 year old! Its totally understandable to have those fears and if they say it’s not their lying!