Now I’ve had time to think about everything, I’m worried about my mental health following this. I’m hoping it’s just the shock of everything and will pass.
I’ve never felt this scared. A part of me is scared Shy will seem to be gettin better and then something will change – this terrifies me. My own life long fear of death is seeping in, causing panic attacks but in regards to Shy now.
I now feel I can never let this happen again. I have to eat properly, lots of fruit and veg, vitamins, lots of antibacterial stuff. I’m worried of who this fear could lead me to become. Maybe, if this carries on I will have to ask for therapy again. I don’t want Shy to live in my fear.
Let me sleep on it